Why can’t I forget you?
“Ji! Open up the door! Get your ass up cause we have to go now!” Bam… Bam… Bam…
“Go away! I’m not going!” I picked up a pillow beside me, rolling sideways; I put it above my ear.
“What?! You’re not going? Today is Dara’s burial! Hello! In case you forgot, she’s your girlfriend’s twin sister!”
“Argh!!! Why do I have to go? I said I don’t want to!” I throw the pillow on the floor. Why can’t they just leave me alone?
“Whatever! I’m going! Geez! We are probably so late anyway.” Thump… Thump… Thump… Heavy footsteps started moving downstairs.
I just want to be alone… Is Dara really dead? I wasn’t able to see her for the last time. I didn’t even get to tell her what I always wanted to let her know. Sheesh… Staring at the ceiling, I close my eyes slowly… Reminiscing…
“Excuse me! I think this is yours!” Somebody was shouting behind my shoulder. I was in a hurry to go to my next class. I’m incredibly late. I abruptly stopped which cause that somebody to bump into me. That somebody must have been running to me while she’s shouting.
“Ouch!” I automatically turned just in time to catch her from falling.
“Are you okay?” Her hair covered her face. She was clutching her right arm. She must have been slammed into the hallway when she bumped into me. “I’m sorry. Does your arm hurt?” I slowly remove her hair from her face. And Lo! Behold! The loveliest face I’ve ever seen. I was staring at her intently when I didn’t notice she was trying to pull away from my grasp.
“Excuse me? Can you let me go now? I’m fine.” She took a step back.
“Ow… I’m sorry.” I must have looked like a fool. I immediately pulled back my hand and shoved it in my pocket.
She straightened herself up and fixed her hair. Then, she shoved a pen into my face. I raised one eyebrow in confusion.
“I think this is yours.” She said waving the pen in front of me.
“Huh?” I looked at the pen closely. I don’t remember having it on me.
“It fell out from your bag.” She then grabbed my hand and placed down the pen into my palm. And she quickly left.
I stared down at the pen in my hand. Feeling confused, I looked at her walking back.
Riiiiing….. Oh Crap! The bell has already rung twice. I’m so dead! My teacher is going to kill me for being late… every class.
I felt a tear slowly escape from my eye. Slowly, I open my eyes and stare at the dull ceiling.
I grip the pen I’m holding in my right hand and raise it above so I can look at it closely.
Gradually, I read the engraved words in it. “I Love You”
Why can’t I forget you?
I’ve been trying to forget you for the past 2 years. Now, my life is perfectly in order and you came back to create havoc in it. Why?
I look for the letter Dara gave for me in my bag. It was written in a pink stationary. It’s her favorite color. They say pink is a quiet color for universal love. Her favorite flower is pink carnation which means “I will never forget you”. Her attitude ignites the color pink.
Maybe that’s why she was always the favorite twin by everyone. Even by him.
My Dear Twin Sandy,
The other half of me. What can I say? We are the exact opposite. But I think we love almost the same thing… and the same person. (Now, I think I know who she’s referring to.)
First, I would like to thank you for always being there. Though there are times, I know, you hated me since they usually favored my simple ideas to your wacky ones. =p I have always understood you.
I know I’ve caused you too many heartaches and I know you’ve never blamed me for it. =) You love me too much eh? I love you the same.
I know I’m in no position to ask for a favor but still I hope you will grant this last favor of mine.
Sis, please be with the person you love. (What could she possibly mean by this?)
Sincerely your other half,
Bam… Bam… Bom-unnie is knocking on the window shield. Hastily, I open the car door for her.
I quickly put back the letter inside my bag and wipe a tear that fell without my notice. I didn’t know I was crying when I read the letter again.
Bom-unnie’s face is also puffy red from crying since Dara died. They are really pretty close.
“You’ve been crying too huh?” Bom-unnie asks as she sits beside me at the front. I’m going to drive the car. Our parents left earlier and leave us alone to spend more time with each other.
I just smile as an answer.
“Is he here already?”
“Who?” I ask back but I think I already know whom she’s referring to. “Is that him, unnie?”
I said pointing a finger at a man who is walking towards Dara’s grave.
“Yes… Go to him and give him this. I bet Dara wants him to have it.” Bom‑unnie handed me the bunny and the letter. “Do you want to keep the bunny to yourself?”
“Nah… I think he should have it.” Picking up an umbrella, I slowly open the car door and move towards the figure bent down on a grave.
“I will never forget you.”
You, who have given my life another meaning, make me trust and love again.
Why did you leave all of a sudden?
I bent down beside the grave laying a bouquet of pink carnations. Even the flowers mean “I will never forget you.”
How will I live my life after this?
I didn’t notice someone is standing behind me until…
“Seunghyun-oppa, thank you.”
Gradually, I turn around and look at the person who just said that. Are my eyes playing tricks on me? “Dara?”
With a smile, she hands over a bunny and a letter to me. “Hi, I’m Dara’s twin sister, Sandy.”
I almost fall down from my sitting position. Fate really knows how to make a person look like a fool. Oh well… I am already a fool to begin with. As I accept the bunny and the letter in one hand, I slowly stand up and faced her. They look incredibly the same except this one looks healthier; her cheeks are red and her eyes sparkling with tears.
“Uhmm… thank you.” I am speechless, dumbfounded, and lost. I just stare at her intently. She must be a ghost. I slowly touch her cheek. She is about to move a step back but seems to decide against it. She just stands there and let me touch her. She’s real.
“I’m not a ghost. The resemblance is really great.” She smiles as she says that. I quickly remove my hand and shove it in my pocket. Then, I look away.
“This can’t be true.” I let out a deep sigh. “She never told me anything about her having a twin sister.”
“Maybe she wants to surprise you.”
“That’s stupid.” I suddenly feel angry and start clutching my hand inside my pocket.
“I know. She sometimes is.” She softly squeezes my shoulder which makes me jump and face her again.
I look into her eyes. She seems to be about to say something but she quickly let her head down. “I should be going then.”
As she turn to leave, something is weird but I can’t help myself asking. “Do I know you?”
I will never forget you…
Dara, I hope you’re happy now. I will miss you very much. I will never ever forget you.
Looking outside the car’s window, I can see Sandy and Seunghyun are talking. I bet Seunghyun is really shocked to find out that Dara has a twin. But looking at them from afar, Seunghyun seems calm.
I am undeniably wet. Despite being sheltered with an umbrella, the rain manages to wet my long black skirt and the sleeves of my coat. I decide to remove my coat and just let my skirt be wet. Father will be furious when he found out that the car is wet. But, today will be an exception. I know he wouldn’t have the strength to mind anything especially about the car.
As I remove the coat, a pink paper fell down from its pocket. I pick it up and notice it was the letter Dara gave to me. Letting out a deep sigh, I read it again.
My dearest Bommie,
Unnie! Mwah… mwah.. mwah… Thank you very much for all the things you’ve done for me. Nothing can compare how much you gave to show how much you love me. And… I appreciate it very much. I could never ask for more. Thank you… thank you… thank you.
Unnie, remember the promise you made to me? Don’t ever ever forget it, ara? You will have to find your happiness.
I hope you won’t be stubborn anymore. Please forget and forgive the past. I know it’s hard but think for your own happiness. Okay?
Don’t miss me too much or else… I’ll haunt you… joking! Seriously, don’t. Okay?
I’m so happy unnie… Thank you.
With lots of Love,
Dara… I will be missing you so much. Thank God that you were very happy on the last days of your life. I will truly find my happiness for you. If only he waited for me… If only nothing happen 2 years ago, I will surely be the happiest woman in the world. If only… he is still by my side.
As I was about to put the letter in my bag, I notice something is written in the left bottom side at the back of the paper. In small scribble, it says…
PS. He is coming soon.
Hmmmm… Letting out a deep breath, I pull my trolley behind me. Seoul… Sweet Seoul. How long has it been since I was here? It must have been 2 years.
Dara contacted me when she was at Hawaii, that sweet girl never forgets me. Yes. And I will never forget her. It was 3 years ago when we first met at the hospital she was confined.
“Dr. Dong, please proceed to room 344. A patient’s result needs to be analyzed by your specialization. Dr. Yang is waiting for you there.” A nurse reported to me on my way to our changing room.
“Okay. I’ll be there immediately.” I answered hurriedly proceeding to the room to get change. As I was about to turn into a corner, I collided into a woman who is hurriedly walking. My chart went flying to the floor and so are her things. She was actually bringing a packed food. But due to the impact it went scattering in the floor.
“Yah! Watch out where you’re going!” She retorts automatically picking up the spared food. But it was to no avail, the food was already spoiled. She eventually started crying.
I picked up my charts and try to make her stand up by pulling her left arm. “I’m really sorry miss… Let me buy you lunch sometime. Okay?”
She harshly pulled her arm back and straightened her dress. “It’s okay. I can buy it myself.”
Then, she stared at me with piercing eyes. If eyes could kill, I would surely die for sure.
Oh no! She misunderstood me. “No… no… What I meant is… “
“It’s okay. “ With a pout, she turned her back and left.
Oh well… What a way to start my day. I was still in my first month working at Seoul after finishing my voluntary work at Ethiopia. I hurriedly proceed to go change my wardrobe.
Room 344. As I opened the door, it banged on a person. Geez… When will accidents stop?
“Umm… Sorry.” Slowly, I went inside. Talk about fate by accident. I collided with the same woman again, twice on the same day.
“Argh.. It’s you again!” She just muttered as she step aside to make way for me.
“Dr. Dong… Please check her stats.” Dr. Yang approached me with the patient’s results. I look at it closely. Studying it intently, I could tell that the patient is in deep trouble. Letting out a deep sigh, I moved towards the patient’s bed. She was sleeping peacefully. She was very pretty even though she looks pale.
“Who is her guardian?” I looked around me searching for possible person. My gaze stopped at the woman who was nursing her left arm.
She looked up at me and said. “I’m her older sister, Bom.”
“Appa! What a you doin?” I feel someone tugging at my shirt. I let out another deep sigh looking down at that someone.
With a smile, I answer. “I’m just thinking about your mom’s sister, little SanBae.”
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